THE MOVIE IN MY HEAD
Many of us sit and watch our lives like an audience member instead of living it as the hero of our story. Don’t be afraid of being the lead actor to your own movie, otherwise sit and watch in turmoil as others live their lives as the star of their show.
It’s a trip to think we can be our own worst enemy caught in a vicious cycle of self-harm and self-doubt. If you don’t stop it, it will eat at you until you’re old and grey. It only stops when you take control of your mind and let it know that it can’t fuck with you. You’re on the same team.
The saying goes “if you’re friend jumped off a bridge, would you do it?” We all have that one friend with bad moral judgment, yet we sometimes find ourselves asking their advice on personal issues. If you’re gut tells you not to do something, listen to it, otherwise be prepared to jump off a bridge. Don’t listen to Sue. It’s easy to be a follower.
It’s a torment when you have two things tugging you at both ends, battling your wants against your needs; what’s for pleasure and what’s for necessity. You must truly ask yourself “what is the best thing for ME, right now?” “What must I let go of to keep going down the right path?” And once you can be honest with yourself and stop lying to yourself, things magically begin to unknot themselves and the tugging subsides.
The questions, “What are you thinking?” and “What’s going on in that head of yours?” can be dangerous to ask and even more dangerous to answer. BUT if you find someone who you can honestly share your thoughts with, however fucked up or insecure they may be, without feeling strangled, keep them close because chances are it will take a lifetime to find another.
BORN TO LIVE
It’s not the soldier who waits for others to win the war that becomes the hero, but the lonely, injured soldier stuck in the trenches, climbing over dead and mangled bodies with bullets flying over head, that is willing to keep going, while no one is there to help him. Don’t get stuck waiting for others. Find a way to keep going when no one is around to help you.